[Oh, she gets it. In fact, that had been exactly what Cami had been referring to—the fact that they're holding hands like a pair of high schoolers who don't know what to do with themselves. And yes, she's said the same words for what feels like a hundred times or more, but they still seem to be stuck in the same place. Sam refuses to trust, and Cami's really not sure what it's going to take to convince him to change—but that doesn't mean she lacks an idea. He might even be thinking something along those lines too, given the way he's looking at her now.
And there are definitely worse ways this conversation could go, all things considered.]
That depends on just how closed off you're determined to be. [It's not at all the same as opening up about his problems, but sometimes physical intimacy can be a pleasurable form of healing all on its own. Even if he's determined to keep everything in, maybe sharing that connection with someone else would do some good for Sam. Cami's damn sure it'll give her something; after all, he's far from the only one who's lonely, or who's wanted to be normal in a life that refuses to let them be. She's felt the same sort of loss when people from her world have vanished, and bitterly recognized her own birthday, which should be shared but isn't because her brother is dead.
She knows what it feels like to be alone in the mess, and she hates it.
So she gives him the chance to say no as she lifts her free hand to his cheek. Her intentions should be well and clear, and if not—well. Somehow Cami doubts Sam's entirely inexperienced here, so "not" shouldn't be an issue. She leans up carefully, pressing closer to him as she lets her lips brush against his, nothing more than a gentle touch for now. He could still reject her outright, which would feel pretty awful, but that's his call. Cami just wants to make sure it's entirely clear what she's offering, and asking for in turn: the chance to lose themselves with another person, even for a short while.]
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And there are definitely worse ways this conversation could go, all things considered.]
That depends on just how closed off you're determined to be. [It's not at all the same as opening up about his problems, but sometimes physical intimacy can be a pleasurable form of healing all on its own. Even if he's determined to keep everything in, maybe sharing that connection with someone else would do some good for Sam. Cami's damn sure it'll give her something; after all, he's far from the only one who's lonely, or who's wanted to be normal in a life that refuses to let them be. She's felt the same sort of loss when people from her world have vanished, and bitterly recognized her own birthday, which should be shared but isn't because her brother is dead.
She knows what it feels like to be alone in the mess, and she hates it.
So she gives him the chance to say no as she lifts her free hand to his cheek. Her intentions should be well and clear, and if not—well. Somehow Cami doubts Sam's entirely inexperienced here, so "not" shouldn't be an issue. She leans up carefully, pressing closer to him as she lets her lips brush against his, nothing more than a gentle touch for now. He could still reject her outright, which would feel pretty awful, but that's his call. Cami just wants to make sure it's entirely clear what she's offering, and asking for in turn: the chance to lose themselves with another person, even for a short while.]